centered - (12/18/08)

music centers me. i realize that i get most stressed when i run out of time to play guitar or sing or play piano. it calms me. and it excites me to learn new challenging songs or discover new singers i like. my life and emotions seem to revolve around music. i get bored with life if i've been listening to the same old music over and over again. i listen to what reflects my mood at the moment. or my mood reflects what i'm listening to at the moment. i'm not sure which way it works. i don't often listen to screamo. and it takes a lot for me to get really mad. coincidence? i'm pretty chill most of the time. and my favorite kind of music is acoustic stuff. random unrelated facts? i think not. i like songs that are pretty standard, but they throw a little something in it to make you smile. whether it makes sense or not. it just makes you smile or laugh. maybe that's what i want to be like? i like songs that make you think. i don't like songs with dumb lyrics that don't make sense, that don't make a difference. i like songs that make a difference to someone who listens to them. maybe that reflects me? i like songs i can relate to. i like people i can relate to and i want people to be able to relate to me. i like songs that are honest, not songs that pretend. in life too. i like songs that grab you deep down inside of you and then wrench emotions out of you you didn't even know were in you. songs that make you fall to your knees, that humble you. songs that slap you in the face. unique songs. i don't like whiny songs. at all. i like songs that expose the writer for who they really are. i think that is why music centers me. it subconsciously reminds me of all these things. it calms me. it reminds me of the good times past and gives me hope for the future. it lets me express things in ways nothing else can.